I just had one final exam today. I feel pretty confident on it. It was for my classics class. I didn't enjoy that class at all. But I had to take it for my theme. On the plus side, my theme is now over so that is nice to have completed something. I have three more finals this week...yuck. But I have an entire day to study tomorrow which will be really nice. I also still have the rest of tonight, Which I think I'm devoting a good portion of it to study for my music 100 class. One I go over all of things on the objectives sheet and take the online quiz, I'll start right onto the biochem. That is by far going to be my hardest exam. I really want to do well on this exam. I'm not doing so hot in the class. I think I'm barley passing it, so really the final is going to determine whether or not I need to retake the class or not. I'm really hoping no. As much as I should anyway with a bad grade, I don't want to. I just want to graduate and feel like I've accomplished Something.
I just always feel there is an extra load of pressure on my shoulders when I think about school. Both of my parents expect so much out of me. And then when they talk to my aunts and uncles about how I go to such and such school and im majoring in this and la de dah...it just adds in, because I feel like i need to live up to the expectations of others. And I feel like it just isn't fair sometimes. Thats not why I should be doing the things I do, I should be doing them because I want to, not because others want me to. When I started at GV I knew what I wanted then, if I knew what I know now about how hard my classes were going to be, I might have chosen something different. when I think of things that way though, my entire life could be different. I might not be dating Furao, have the awesome friends I have now, play capoeira, or even have gone to GV in the first place. All I know is that things will figure themselves out, the time of stress will eventually pass over.
So on Friday I'm going to my parents house. And I'll be there for a few days. Then I'll be making my way to Texas Sunday morning with my mom and nephew (lorenzo). We'll be there for about a week to visit my brother. It should be fun. I haven't been out of state since the 2010 batizado for Rochester. So just a little over a year. I suppose I cant leave 2011 without leaving the state at least once this year right? The only downside is we will be driving. We were going to fly, but my mom really wanted a car while we were down since my brother only has one, and will be at work half of the time. She didn't want to rent one cause after a week that can be expensive. So we're taking my car....well my dads car really. It takes about 24 to get there. I'm anticipating a little longer since its just the two of us driving and I've never driven there before. My mom has, so she knows the way better than I do.
Well I'll leave it at that for now. I'll update after christmas, texas and new years...share pictures and such.
So have a merry christmas and happy new year!
QBD
